Hi everyone

I’ve had quite a couple of weeks. Some of the worst ones in a long time. Self confidence in the bin, self worth in the bin. At one point I wasn’t sure if I’d get up.

The fog has lifted somewhat now, but I think the last couple of weeks have changed me in some way. I don’t know how to explain it but I know for certain that the Steph that started the last fortnight, is not the one that ended it.

I feel almost numb. Like these preceding weeks have caused a shut down of some kind.

Don’t get me wrong, I have shut down mentally many times in the past, but this feels different. Like something has been damaged in myself. But what?

I’m thinking more than usual, and that is a tricky feat, trust me. But I’m thinking logically. The conversations I am having…