Today marks a whole year since my last appointment with my eating disorders service.

I have been under them on and off since 2011 and most recently for 18 months in a combination of day patient and therapy. It was a very challenging time but I am so grateful for all the support I had, and I definitely didn’t stop the recovery process since discharge. Here are some of the things I’ve learnt.

A target weight is a minimum, not a maximum
I felt so suffocated by my target weight. I had a bracket of 2kg that I could move between and any time it shifted even slightly above the upper ‘limit’ I completely freaked out. I felt like I wasn’t allowed to go above it, because I interpreted it as being told that was the maximum I could weigh. As time went on, it became clear to me that…