The time … I still had a bipolar husband

Ellie the Crunch

So last year at this time husband was on the peak of his high. He was so high that had planned to buy about 100 houses in Florida and turn them into AirBnBs.

He was going to Florida every week or so, and almost every Friday his flight would be canceled or delayed causing our ASD son a lot of stress and distress.

He was renting expensive cars, this below was one of them

I am not involved in the finances of the household but I honestly thought that he was renting such a crazy expensive car he could afford it as he usually doesn’t do crazy stuff like this.

Then Passover came and he rented us not 1 but 2 houses in Florida, in one of the most depressing areas with a very small Jewish community. And invited his friend to stay there with the family for FREE.


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Do You Feel It Too?

Know Your Worth; Own Your Life

There’s something brewing in the spiritual realm. I don’t know what; but, it’s blankly evident this morning.

Less than a half hour ago, a bus pulls up to pick up my kids. It wasn’t their usual bus number. 🤔🤔

Literally, moments before that, there was a man shouting at a bus driver. After the kids got on, this man came over to the opened door. Seriously, my heart sank. I thought I was gonna have to jump out of the car and go kick some ass, because this guy was trying to hurt the kids.

I think he was just trying to get this driver to take his kids to school; though, he didn’t go through the proper channels to do it correctly. I can empathize; because, sometimes the proper channels take trice as long to complete. Parents don’t have that kind of time.

Once I finally made it home…

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Quote of the Day

Don't Lose Hope

Stay close to people who want more for you, not from you.”

Remember that you have limits.

Remember that you don’t have to give endlessly, and to be there for everyone, all the time.

Choose your relationships wisely.

Choose people who are good for you.

If this is an area of struggle for you, ask yourself what’s stopping you from staying close to the right people, and walking away from the wrong people.

It’s an important question to ask.

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Joseph Charles Price

Big Sky Buckeye

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I do not care how dark the night; I believe in the coming of the morning.

From Luke 1:78-79:  “Because of the tender mercy of our God, the dawn from on high will break upon us, to shine upon those who sit in darkness and in the shadow of death, to guide our feet into the way of peace.”

Joseph Charles Price (1854-1893) was the founder of Livingstone College in Salisbury, North Carolina.  He was a gifted orator as well as a leader in the African-American community in the southern United States.  He also served many congregations as pastor.

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Bipolar disorder

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Everyone has changes in their mood, but with bipolar disorder these changes can be extreme, overwhelming and have a big impact on your life.

What are the symptoms of bipolar disorder?

If you have bipolar disorder, you’re likely to have episodes of depression (feeling very low) and mania (feeling very high). You may feel well between these episodes.

Bipolar symptoms can make daily life hard and affect your relationships and work.

During a depressive episode, you may:

  • feel sad, hopeless or irritable
  • lack energy and appetite
  • lose interest in everyday activities
  • have difficulty concentrating or remembering things
  • feel empty, worthless, guilty or despairing
  • have difficulty sleeping.

During a manic episode, you may:

  • feel full of energy
  • feel self-important or have lots of ideas and plans
  • be easily distracted, irritated or agitated
  • have no desire to sleep or eat
  • make decisions or say things that are out of character, risky or harmful.

Some people experience psychosis during a severe episode of depression or mania. This means you may see or hear things that aren’t there or believe things that aren’t true.

Episodes can last for several weeks or months with periods of less extreme mood in between. Depending on how you experience these moods and how severe they are, your doctor may diagnose you with a particular type of bipolar disorder. Mind has more information on these different types.

What causes bipolar disorder?

The exact cause of bipolar disorder is unknown, but researchers believe a combination of factors make someone more likely to develop it. These include:

  • genetics – if you’re related to someone with bipolar disorder, you’re more likely to develop it yourself
  • chemical imbalance in the brain – too much or too little of certain chemicals could make you develop depression or mania
  • childhood trauma – abuse, neglect or bereavement in childhood can cause you to develop bipolar disorder. This could be because of the impact on your ability to regulate your emotions
  • stressful life events – a relationship breakdown or financial difficulties can be the trigger for bipolar symptoms.

You usually develop bipolar disorder before you’re 20. It’s rare to develop it after the age of 40.

Getting support

Treatment for bipolar disorder aims to reduce the severity and number of episodes of depression or mania you experience. The right treatment for you will depend on your type of bipolar, current symptoms, and your preferences and circumstances.

If you think you have bipolar disorder, start by speaking to your GP. It can help to keep a record of your moods to help you both understand your mood swings. You can download a mood scale and mood diary from the Bipolar UK website. Your GP may then refer you to a psychiatrist, who can give you a diagnosis.

There are different types of help you can get with bipolar disorder.

Talking therapy

There are different talking therapies that have been shown to work well for people with bipolar disorder.

  • Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT) can help you recognise how your feelings, thoughts, and behaviour influence each other and build strategies to change these patterns.
  • Interpersonal Therapy (IPT) focuses on your relationships with others and how your thoughts, feelings, and behaviour are affected by your relationships and vice versa.

What you’re offered may depend on what’s available in your area and what you and your GP feel would be best for you.


There are different medications available to treat bipolar disorder. It’s likely your GP or psychiatrist offer you one of more of the following:

  • medication to prevent episodes of depression and mania. These are known as mood stabilisers
  • medication to treat the symptoms of depression and mania as they happen.

The NHS website has more information about medication for bipolar disorder.

Longer term plans

You may work with healthcare professionals to learn to monitor your mood and recognise what triggers your depression and mania. They may help you to develop a crisis or risk management plan so you know how to manage any early warning signs. This may involve friends and family, so they know how to recognise any early signs of distress and support you.

You can also help yourself by taking care of your physical health as well as your mental health and making sure that you get regular exercise, good quality sleep, and eat a healthy diet.

Mental health

On my site I don’t just cover epilepsy & Cerebral palsy, although they are my two main conditions as I myself suffer from them.

However with epilepsy & cerebral palsy I also cover other mental health or brain disorders such as Bipolar, Autism, ADHD, diamensia etc.

If you have a mental health issue I would be delighted for you to follow me at

Dear Guilt … (A Conversation) — Essentially Ellie

Survivors Blog Here

Dear Guilt, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately and have decided that it’s high time for you and me to part company. I’ve been carrying you around like a large basket of groceries for many years, and you’re getting too heavy for me to manage anymore, so I finally made the decision to[…]

Dear Guilt … (A Conversation) — Essentially Ellie

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