Child Diabetes from a parent’s point of view.

Nobody saw you. At 3am, headlamp on, sneaking into her room Every. Single. Night. Praying she doesn’t wake as you bleed her finger for the 10th time today4mmol. Shit.Too low for 3am.Get the juice carton

“She needs this to survive,” you repeat to yourself“ Will she be able to handle this life?” “Will I?”

Nobody saw you cry Because you always had to be so strong You can’t let them see your broken heart You must keep going She has to be so brave, you must set the example Soldier on

Nobody saw you desperately shoving sugar in your shaking and confused child“One more sip, baby”“One more gummy bear for mummy, please

”Nobody saw you Trying to count how many carbs she ate Tiny teeth marks on an apple – is that 5 carbs worth or 8?Did she eat three french fries, or was it six? Not enough insulin, she goes high and there’s long-term damage to her organs Too much insulin and we’re looking at an immediate and dangerous issue.

Nobody saw you on the phone With your insurance company With your diabetes supply company Your endocrinologist Your nurse10 phone calls this week when you were supposed to be working Or napping Or eating

Nobody saw you, nobody listened when you tried to educate them To tell them about a condition so complex that they can never truly understand unless they live with it It’s an autoimmune disease No, it can’t be prevented No, there is no cur eyes, she can eat.

that Nobody saw you So scared to sleep through an alarm Terrified they might not wake up in the morning Waking up to feel like you can’t do this crazy dance another day But you rise to take on another 24 hours – for them Check the blood sugar, treat the high, count the carbs, treat the low Nobody saw any of that They simply saw you at the park, the museum, grocery shopping

see you, brave ones see your grit and your daily grind I see your fears for the future I see your fierce love and determination for your child I see you raising a warrior, and in the process becoming one yourself!

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